Always tomorrow...

  I don't know if anyone else has did this but, at the begining of each year in Jr. High and High School I would come up with a theme for myself; a plan for how I wanted each year to go and how I would represent myself. The older I get the more I acknowledge that yes, teenage hood sucked but it was the time for my most creative freedom. 

  Every year before the start of term I would decide what style I would have. I'd make up outfits in my head that later I would manifest. I'd pick social goals for the year, like "I want to attend my first house party" or "I want to be in a play" or " I want my crush to think I'm sexy." I'd never have to write them down I just kept them. I'd like to get back into this habit. I'm relearning that there's nothing wrong with wanting to have goals for yourself and play with your image.

   How do you want people to see you??

  Change the way you see yourself! 

  We are all open canvases, there is no future yet there is only now and the little things that we can do for ourselves and others. Sure society or pop culture may seem like it's pressuring you to be another brick in the wall but it doesn't have to be that way. Deciding for yourself who you want to be and what you want to do (things that will make you happy not other's goals as you see them) for the next year, month or even the next day, can give you a sense of timelessness and "there's always tomorrow" that can be very refreshing and even relaxing once you get the hang of it. 

  

A cookie to swear by...

This is my first fall season in my own little studio apartment. Weather here in San Diego has been such a roller coaster lately. For the last few weeks we've had cold spells (well cold for us) and my hardwood floors and concrete walls just beg for the warmth of baking. 

I was aching for some cookies last week. I've wanted to try vegan baking but I find many recipes that require all kinds of expensive chemical doodads just to create something remotely edible. Fortunately I came across this recipe from Vegan with a Vengeance but I didn't have nearly half the stuff I needed so I kitchen sinked it :) 

I'm a no muss no fuss kind gal. I grew up cooking with and for my family teaching myself to make "fancy" foods out of minimal. If we had one cookie sheet, a wood spoon and an arm for mixing that's what we used. I still don't have a lot of fancy cooking things but I don't believe that good food requires anything special other than the thought and love you put behind it. I am a little nervous to share these recipes with you guys mainly because they're things I just have thrown together and have never tried to write down. I promise I'll do my best but always play around with your food!

xo

Vegan Pumpkin Kitchen Sink Cookies

Makes me about 2 doz cookies, but I like 'em big :)

2 C. All purpose flour (I've been meaning to try w/spelt)

1 1/3 C. Rolled oats

1 2/3 C. Sugar

1tsp. Baking soda

1/4 tsp. Salt

1 tsp. Cinnamon

1/2 tsp. Nutmeg

1 tsp. Vanilla Extract

2/3 C. Olive oil

2 tsp. Dark honey

1/2 a can of puréed pumpkin

1 tbs. flaxseeds

3 finely chopped dates

1/2 C. "Chopped" Almonds (I just pound the heck out of them with a hammer)

1/3 C. Dried orange cranberries (optional, can sub for raisins)

Preheat oven to 350 F.  Grease cookie sheet lightly with some Olive oil. 

Mix together the oats, spices, salt, flaxseeds and soda In a separate bowl mix the sugar with the oil, pumpkin, honey, and extract. Add the dry ingredients carefully to the wet (I do this by hand). The mixture turns into kind of a brick at some point. Don't get freaked out, it's normal. Then add the almonds, cranberries & dates. Spoon tablespoonfuls of batter onto your sheet and press down lightly with a fork. Bake @ 350 for 15-25 minutes. Let the cookies rest on the sheet for a few minutes before you transfer them to a plate, a cookie rack, your mouth, or they may tear. 

I can't leave these out on my counter because I can't restrain myself from making these a meal!

Yum yum

we stand together in the wind...

I've been trying to let emotions flow freely from me. While some say it's working I still feel like a pressure cooker letting off bits of steam before I explode.

I've been trying to regain use of my intuition but my emotions seem to be spilling out while I try to dam them. I realized that I had been taking Cerato & Yerba Santa Bach remedies at the same time, so it's probably no wonder I feel like this. 

Yerba Santa tends to have an intense effect on me especially around moon time. 

I guess the safest if your feeling like this would be to fine a creative outlet or journal all your pent up negativity. There's also an amazing spell I have that I've had success with. 

A teacher told me once to imagine you're in a fire, if everyone exits at once you clog up the door. You've got to let each person out one at a time.  She also said when you move you tend to move the small stuff out first then you bed. The same thing can be said about detox. 

<3

Welcome...Bienvenue

Or rather I should welcome myself as well as you all. Whomever is reading this... I wanted to share a few words before bed tonight. This blog is my new labor of love and light. I've been following Leija Trurunen and her soul sister FJ McKinnon's respective vlogs for a bit now and am inspired to add my own bit of love, light, and life to this web and world.
Whether it's my Angels, guides, higher self or what not calling me to arms I can not say. But I feel this drive to share my stories, story and spiritual lessons to all in need who read this or just simply the curious. My goal for this blog is to share a piece of myself with you. The side that radiates indigo, my old soul, my heart. 
Love and Light
J